So Confused and Betrayed


I sit here with my head spinning ,
There’s so many things I want to say to you
So many things I don’t understand ,
Countless numbers that I wish I knew

I sit here empty and cold,
almost in complete and total disbelief
That this is were things are standing ,
In the wave of my grief.

Have I not stood beside you,
Have I not always been there
Where have you gone when I Need you ,
I can’t find you anywhere.

I know your going through a Difficult Time,
 and so am I
This is when we’re suppose to stand Together, this no one can deny

After all we been through,
 After all that has taken place
That during this time,
I haven’t even seen your face.

What hurts me it’s not the first,
 You’ve done this to me before
My grandmothers passing you,
 Never even walked through the door.

Then the big day  You and I Spent
 so much time working towards
Hour after it begins you finally call,
 My heart just hit the floor

Now I stare at the ceiling,
 And all around the walls
It seems I didn’t lose one best friend,
 But almost if it were two after all.

I like to think I try to be understanding,
 And as patient as I can
I just can’t fathom how u couldn’t spare an hour, And just be there to hold my hand.

I guess I just don’t know,
What it is your going through
After all that has happened,
this I would’ve never believed to be true.

I hope where ever and whatever
That you’re up against
That your making it okay
and that it’s all making sense

I’m still here somewhere
if it’s discovered you need me
When I told you I would,
 that’s the way it'll always be.

I truly hope your okay ,
 what your looking for I hope you find
Just wanted you know I care,
and you were still on my mind.

JD Wright
 11/21/2009