DEDICATED TO MY BELOVED HUSBAND

I wanted you to be eternal
as a sunrise,
as a moon silvering the night…

I wanted you to hear
as a refrain
as a sea wave spattering the shore…

I wanted you to be
In hard times
And at moments good and sweet with me

I wanted my soul to stray with you
In wonderful universes and dreams

I wanted both together to make
The world more shining and lovely

I wanted so much…but I could not
Stop your last moment with me.

Then suddenly the sun died out,
the moon was glazed with malice
my soul – a wave has weltered violently
to the shore of bizarre destiny.

And in the whole universe deserted
I did not know where you are, either I am…
And I want to believe that somewhere in infinity
After my last hour you are waiting still for me…

2005, January