Who am I foolin?

It was just one wish

Not so Huge of a request

that the God's should laugh

But they did

I felt like I could feel them pointing and snickering

at me.

Over my shattered dreams

and bashed hopes

I thought maybe just this once

Just this one time

I could get what I prayed for.

Whats the sense in prayer

If the only outcome is

that of my own echo

my inner most desires resounding about.

Like dust in the air

I can see my words

suspended in the rays of the sun that beem through my window

Like graffiti on the walls

my pain is sprawled out for the world to see.

It was just one wish,one prayer, one desire, one hope

It's got me fetal on the floor questioning everything

Is there really anyone anything

Above this sky

Or have I been feed lies

All my life

I'm so tired of Disney World wishes

and Dream Works dreams

Reality

cold

Hard

Nasty

Unforgiving

un-concerned

why must it be so cruel

and leave me all alone?