My heart is open,yet confused. I wish not to be amused. Concerned of all that worries me, walking around lokking for a way but no one tells me which way to go. Lost on priorities, lost in emotion wanting everything but got nothing to claim. Wonder of thought cloud the mind, as tears fill my eyes. Hopeless!! Can't seem to ever find a way, does'nt get any better only harder as i go. "Never giving up", is what i push for even thought at times i feel like letting it all go. Curling up into a ball crying my heart from the inside never out, it only shows weakness, for weakness will not be allowed, for it mayover power me. My life falling slowly apart, as also coming together, it goes up then straight back down then up again. Took to many things for granted never appreciating what was really there, confused on whats real and whats right. Failure is not and cannot defined for i am not a failure yet have failed many times before. Therefore i am no perfect. I tend to sometimes fall in the wrong, rising towards the right ! when i fall from grace gulit filters the heart. it echos , i awake and realize the sacrafices needed to be made for i am not a failure and shall persue my dreams.