The day started out like any other day—
I walked through life breathing and being
I had my ‘outside’ face on; I looked at life through the eyes of those I met
Hoping they would tell me how I felt and how I should act—
How was I to know that whatever I felt was right?
I came into your space and was shown to your couch—it was so big and I was so small.
I tried to sit but my feet couldn’t even touch the floor.
You sat across the room perched and ready, waiting for me to say or do something.
I just sat there looking at that big teddy bear wanting to put my arms around it
because I needed to put my arms around me.
We talked and I cried and I felt you cry with me, I was sad and lost and I knew
You felt my sadness and my loneliness.
I had been so afraid to tell anyone what I really felt and who I really was..
As I talked to you the couch got smaller and I came closer to that teddy bear.
I continued to return to your couch--each time feeling bigger until,
Finally, I could grab that teddy bear and put my arms around it and around me.
My feet finally touched the floor!