Relapse

Everytime I think I'm "safe" the demons sneek back in,
I try to destroy them, but its a force within!! They never die they "keep comin' back".
And that my friend is why I smoked CRACK... yes I did it dont kno why!! Right now I just wanna DIE!! The demons keep talkin'.... SHUT THE FUK UP!! Leave me ALONE!! I have no luck, One day I hope to go back to "that" place. Right now I'm runnin an endless race!! I'm tired of runnin I gotta come back!! I miss myself and thats a fact!! Do me one favor NEVER give up, its not worth it I'm stuck in a rut. It DOESN"T get better, the shyts all the same!! The results are the same, I'm goin fukin insane!! My "friends" have all left me I have noone left!! In the end your "family" is best!! The ones your with when u get high, could care less if u were to die!! Matter of fact they MAY wish u dead, that way they can get your shyt "under the bed". I have learned so much this time out, I wanna come back but, don't kno how. I feel like my "hole" is way too deep!! I never wanna wake from my peaceful sleep!! Thanx for listenin... if u do!! Hit me up my friend cause YOU are tru!!  Madd Love.... L3