how is time measured
in my life its measured by beats
all day long my heart beats for one
one for whom I have shared so much
one who's beauty surpasses all
one thats touch gives me strength
one who's' eyes comfort my soul
as beats and time go on and on
seems that one has come and gone
all day long I sit and wait
for now each beat I grow to hate
never seeing always hoping
wishing crying yelling sorrow
not in stone have I lost
will to live still abounds
will to love hard pressed found
not just one will I loss
alone I search for answers none
no hello or miss you too
just silence
my heart is closing fast I fear
no one to touch or get near
does love forget I don't know
in my life I have dreams
the ONE for me thats hard to see
is to hold my child in my arms
would be greatest gift by far
not sure why it passes me by
never not wanted to be dad
but yet I fear I'm no good
to be so far with nothing shown
a trail of heartbreak left in sand
for once I thought my curse was band
found the one was my great joy
nothing lost but pain and sorrow
back again unsure what follows
too much time left alone
like one plant who needs water
I need “water” from the “one”
understand I may not
selfish some I do feel
but human am I and alone I am
forget the one I can not
always at the top of thought
never hating always hoping
the one I see all the time
in my heart and in my mind
like a ship way out at sea
sailing farther away from me
a place in time I had it all
then a ring destroyed it all
not the same since gift was given
never talk about life together
seems like friends time spent better
many things run through my mind
thinking loving hoping about one time

by Ryan Packham