Lost

It's hard for me to breath.
I don't know what is happening to me.
As you can see there is something on my mind.
What it may be could be harmful to mankind.
My heart feels as if it is about to shatter.
I apolygize for my misguided chatter.
I'm having trouble producing the right words to say.
Everyday goes by and I just cry and cry.
Not knowing what will happen in the future has me in limbo.
If only the one I love could comfort me through this.
But it is not possible because I am lost.
Lost in this cold, dark world I call home.
When will my heartache pass.
Have I done the right things in my life to last.
This time I'm not sure.
Only god knows to I'm suppose to do.
At this precise moment I don't know if I believe in him.
For what he has done is despicible.
Taking away the lives that are so close to my loved one.
My reasoning is not fair.
For this I must bare my broken hearted consequences.