Light Abandonment

GROWING OLDER EACH DAY AND SICKER AS WELL
I SLOWLY DECENDED INTO A SELF-INDUCED HELL
GIVING UP ON A FUTURE  ON PEOPLE  AND LIFE
MY SLOW PAINFUL  SELF HATRED WAS THE SLOW TURNING KNIFE
NO FOOD FOR MY NOURISHMENT NO FOOD FOR MY SOUL
ONLY  SLOW POISENING CHEMICALS TO FILL MY GUTS HOLE
DARKER AND DARKER SWEATING POISEN FROM POURS
AND SICKLY WAKING IN MORNING REALIZING I WAS NOW LIVING OUTDOORS
SPIRALING DOWNWARD SO SICK NOW WITH DIRT AS MY BED
PHYSHICALLY AWARE OF MY SURROUNDINGS BUT SPIRITUALLY DEAD
NOT ALLOWING THE HELP OF ANOTHERS WORD OR TOUCH
JUST ISOLATION AND DARKNESS OF WHICH BOTH I HAD MUCH
MY MIND WAS DECLINING AND BREATH ALMOST SIEZED
MY MIND BODY AND SOUL WERE SURELY DECEASED
BIENG STRIPPED OF ALL GOOD AND LEFT WITH MY LEAST
I ABANDONED ALL LIGHT AND BECAME A SICK BEAST