inconstant

today i wonder
between sanity and madness
nothing inspires me to look yonder
self destructive, i am reckless

For a peace of mind i am searching
under the grimson light though scorching 
i hope for the rain though drenching
now, my soul is aching

do i go back or forward?
never would i be a coward
forward, yes, i should go toward
to claim my self pride and award

i just took a step in to eternal journeys
i will meet ogres with pregnant bellies
i wont be scared like babies
thorns shall blossom in to lillies

i obtained a degree to face the monster
i shall conquer him and shoot up like a star
in today's fashion of unemployed graduates
i am scared to see myself in the gown

But, hardwork shall pave my way to success
and to my sanity i will obtain access