I cant

I cant keep waiting for you
waiting for you to turn up at my door
telling me that everything is gonna be alright
that u arent going anywhere, that we are okay

but thats just wishful thinking
that will never happen, u are with someone else
someone better than me, someone who isnt me
u will never come back to me, it will never happen

im a fool for thinking things like that
thinking that we will ever be something again
that will never happen, you dont want me
you made that point clear as the day

i dont know what i did wrong, i dont get it
why did we fall apart, was it something i did?
was it something i didnt do? wasnt i enough?
i probably wasnt seeing as how you are with someone else

i cant take this, the pain i feel every time i hear about her
every time you talk about her it kills me inside
but i hide it because im just a friend to you and will never be more
i rather be friends than have nothing at all with you

i never regretted what we had, it was the best thing to me
you healed me in a way no one has before
im still paritally healed but in a way im broken to pieces
by you, someone i thought wouldnt hurt me, not once but twice

i cant believe this has happened, but in a way i suspected that it would
it always happens to me, once im finally happy it comes crashing down
in a tumble of waves, it all comes down, spiraling out of control
i give up on trying to find someone for me, i give up on that happiness

for i will never find it, for theres no one quite like you
i dont know what im gonna do, i'll settle for second best
all though that might not be enough but something i will need
something to help me heal the broken pieces of my broken heart

my heart that i gave to you, that i trusted you with and you turned around
and crushed me into pieces, not once but twice, i never deserved that
to be broken again once i was finally at a place that i was happy
only for it to be destroyed again, how will i ever find happiness?
when all that happens is that it gets destroyed in a short time.