I apologize for not being there.And alot of times it seems i don't care.You see raising children was always my fear,Even though they say God doesn't give you more than you can bair.I Apologize for giving so much pain,When i messed up i'd always have someone else to blame.And I Apologize for all the fuss and fights and leaving you awake all those sleepless nights.I Apologize for life ,I don't understand.And putting my children after a man.I know sometimes I seem insane but that's temporary due to a drug last name caine.So i fought my battle,and had a real long run.Took me so far I lost my last son.Decided to start over and sober life seems fun.I thank God everyday i awake just to see the sun.So i can sware by God that i can do right,And my reward would be to hold my family tight,It will be so beautiful you'll be mesmerized,So again I'm sorry and i truly Apologize.