how i feel :: confused1 :: Original Poetry

how i feel

these feeling i can not rhyme

im so confused but what is new

i know it should stop but i dont know if i want it to.

when he smiles as he greats me

makes my heart feels like it drops to my feet.

his voice makes me smile even though he cant see.

talking to him makes me feel important like he actually cares what i have to say.

when we touch i feel shivers all over my body and my heart skips a few beats.

he excited me and makes me feel like im important.

no one has ever made me feel that way.

i know its not love that i feel inside.

god damn it why does it have to hide.

i want more and more and dont want to stop

was it woth the outcome when everyone found out

im not sure yet but will soon find out.

being the other woman was exciting and fun

but we both hurt the one we loved
both in a relationship and mine in a mess
now i think its over and just want to run.

i wish i knew how he felt is it the same or something else.

should i stop and go about my life

never smiling on the inside anymore

why did anyone have to find out.