tired and weak i wait for it
secretly waiting for his phone call
hopein and prayin that i wont throw a fit
knowing that i may fall
wanting it all to work out in the end
but knowing im not ready
longing to be with the one who cant tend
while holdin on to my teddy
I deserve to be happy
long to have words spoken
the situations still crappy
my heart is still broken
no matter what i do
i always end up here
the one torn in two
and so fool of fear
im trying to move on
but i still think of him
still cuts like a thorn
2nd chances are slim
As I sit here pondering
hurting everyone around me
i just keep wondering
how this came to be
So lost and confused
all the strength i have built
my emotions all abused
wrapped up in my guilt
I wake up wanting to die
wishin i wasnt here
you can see it in my eye
all the pain through one tear
cant you see me
im fallin faster
no one else could see
his love was my master
my world built around it
has fallen apart again
but it was all writ
in fewer words, i chose this again
tired of being so numb
wanting and needing to heal
looking at my thumb
knowing i'm still real
what happened to miss independent
the girl who depended on me
has suddenly become dependent
with no one around but three
so heres to you
my true friend
to helpin me thru
til the end
til the end
til the end
whenever that may be