Day Dreaming

Eyes open, with him in front of me
I imagine a life with no pain
No heart breaks, No wrongs
I imagine us kissing passionately
His lips so warm, but only half as warm as his touch
As if he isn't in front of me, I begin missing him severly
I dream of me staring into his eyes
Honestly claiming him as my husband, My everything
Tears stream down my face
But he catches them before they fall
He kisses my eye lids as if they had lips too
Slowly that moment disappears
A long term memory replaces it
last year, last month, last week, yesterday
All the i love you's
Replaying constantly in my mind, in my soul
Now imagining the future, i see us
Happy, whole, existing, faithful, one
A negative thought blanks my mind
Tension in the air, I snap out of it
I realize i was day dreaming
I woke up
But wait
You awake only from your sleep
It must be reality, or real
Could it be, i am reminiscing on what has already happened
Maybe
Or, my dream has come true right in front of me
And my eyes were open
I just needed to focus