When I was a little girl
I ran everywhere I went.
I was missunderstood by everyone.
As a teenager, I was brilliant
but not in the way the wanted me to be.
I had dreams so big
They said they would never come true.
The chaos that filled my mind
i couldn't tame the monster.
Eventually came the hurt and the anger
why me why cant I be normal.
I have spent my adult life
looking for answers
Never settling down, never able to stop.
After so long with my head in the clouds
the depression overtook.
A dark musty hole
with no way out.
Ending my life seemed the only way
to stop the pain the lonliness
to forget about my mistakes
to let go of the agony.
My wish is for 1 person
one strong understanding person
to love me and accept me.
I was told I am not worth anything
I hope that is not true.
I didn't ask for this monster in my head
or the loss of faith
I didn't ask for people to shun me
I just asked for love