Aunt Stephanie

i was alone at night and
throughout those years! for i wanted
you to be free.
noone knew the pain i was in,
but the best i could do was to bear.
so now you
have said rest in peace
dear ME! the auntie...
for now you and I must
say farewell for
we know that god took me into his arms.
i want you to reach the stars.
as i did, i reached out,
but i can't hang on any longer.
"oh God"
your gaze is dangerous
when lying on my knees
he came
"oh God", he came
he was a guy that could take my pain and make me feel better
days i waited to see him. to see my father
to come for me
i asked who are you truly?
 other than a nuisance or an idiot
i want to die.

your were always there infront of me
so you let me see
mother nature, so green and alive.
it's was all clear!
i was ready to look into a new mirror
a mirror full of happiness and completion
so farewell i say
im happy, don't be afraid.

Your identity became clear
for you were no stranger nor a outcast in my life
thank you God
im finally alright