It's hard to love again when so much has been taken away from you. You don't want that same empty feeling in the deep pit of your stomach to grow even bigger than it has been. It makes you want to cry because of the hurt inside that you feel like you might die. Locking yourself in a dark dreary room not wanting to ever let in another person who might try to win your heart again. Showing no emotion to the vast ocean in your life, you learn the games that most people love to play, so they can gain your trust just to ripe it away. The same problem will happen again once you let him in. He will pretend to be sweet until the next time you think he is a real man. He wants to have his way so he will play the game he feels that you want him to play. You think about the pain that will never heal the. You run away as if it happened yesterday. That is why it is so hard to try again.