A Mistake

A mistake has been made

Some one assumed

I was someone to look up too

Some one with good influences

Ideals to better your future

Someone said

that I have words of encouraging

Simple thoughts of how

to out last others

Written prayers for survival

A woman with goals

A sense of support

A role model

A positive shadow

A shade that hides the darkness

Sounds good

doesn’t it?

To believe some one like that

could be in your environment

Well I’m not someone to look up too

My reason for living

is the doubt that says I can’t

I have never been a good influence

Although I try

My ideals are half decided

My future has no permanents

My words aren’t even my own

My thoughts are just that

I can barely convince myself

to get out of bed

My goals are unrealistic

and on the back burner

Leaving me a statistic

I’m 5 out of at least

          100 women

I’m hiding in the darkness

Because there I feel safe

There I can hide from those

who’ve made this mistake

I would never want to be

considered a fake

Someone who impersonates

a positive being

Most just aren’t seeing

but there believing what

I’m dreaming

They’re hopes build mine

Their positive thoughts help me to last

Their spoken prayers

help me to ask

They make me remember

my goals

They make me

want to be a role model

They make me

come out of the darkness

And into the light

They make me fight

For that so called

Impossible life